Tulisan ini dibuat setelah akhirnya tumbang kehabisan sertraline. Sudah berhari-hari tidak merasakan emosi apapun, hidup seperti zombie, tapi beberapa menit dalam sehari bisa cemas dengan luar biasa. Merasa tidak bisa tidur, membayangkan sesuatu menghatam tubuhku sampai aku mati. I really wish my depression go away because I want to be able to do my task, to do my dialy routine. Even writing this down really takes so much from my energy.
I want to cerish all of my friends because they deserve the
best in me but I can’t even lift my head a bit. Wish I was rich enough so I have
no problem paying all of these therapists. I'm tired of being tired. I’m tired
of having this baggage. I can't keep having silent panick attack, I’m so
fucking sick of this depression.
Semoga suatu saat semuanya menjadi lebih baik. Im in my
twenties, im still so young, I shouldn’t have to carry this demon behind my
back everyday.
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